I need a friend, Internet. I don’t have a large circle of friends. I have 3. Jakki, Teenie and Ph.D. I guess I haven’t called Ph.D. but she’s so busy with her work, I feel guilty bothering her.
See…..everyone seems to have stuff going on in their lives, and it doesn’t include me. I try TRY TRY to be a good friend, and I try to be understanding and compassionate, but sometimes I get my feelings hurt. Sometimes I want to stomp my feet and say ‘HEY….I have a stake in this friendship too, and I need you.’ I skirt around it sometimes, but never am brave enough to really say it. Nothing I’m dealing with is life threatening or really all that important. Things just bug me and I would LOVE to gripe and complain and be met with a chorus of “Oh no she d’int”, or “I can’t BELIEVE IT”…OR “you poor baby’ or make a joke or something. Not ignoring my calls or plea for an ear.
I can’t tell YOU about my woes because it would break my rule of blogging about work. I blog about general things at the office, but I promised myself not to blog about work specifically. Something that could come back and bite me or impact my future.
I sort of suffer from the ‘everything is about me’ syndrome. I try very VERY hard to not fall into that trap, because despite the fact I think the world should revolve around me, I’ve come to realize in my old age that it doesn’t. Actually, very few people even CARE…………so when formulating my thoughts, I try REALLY hard to remember this. But sometimes it just doesn’t work. I want people to pay ATTENTION to me, to make me feel cared about and not stupid for letting the little things in life get to me. Instead, my woes fall on deaf ears.
Sorry Internet, you are getting the sorry side of Perfectly today. The annoying, insecure, needy side. Which I don’t even like, so if you want to close this post and ignore me today…..go right ahead, Emotionally I’ll be PISSED if you do, but logically, I can totally see why you would want to. In time my logical side usually wins out and I’ll stop the pouting.
Sorry, Ph.D….you maybe getting a ‘woe is me’ call soon.
Now, what to have for dinner tonight?
BBQ hot dogs and hamburgers?
Everyone is on their own….eat cereal for all I care….I’ll be having RUM.
You decide. My family would probably be more satisfied with options 1 and 2……..so keep that in mind.
Your party pooper,